MY COACHING STORY

I began my coaching journey back in 2015 when I decided to quit my job and relocate to Bali, co-founded WomenofIndonesia.com, joined a Life Coaching Course, spent a month of Yoga Teacher bootcamp in India, and sailing across Komodo among many other roller coaster ride.  Sounds cheesy :D yeah I know. I always start my story by saying, that my journey is not necessarily your journey. That we all have our own each journey to be.

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I was lucky that they gave me an executive coach back then, that inspired me to say to myself, hey I wanna retired having conversation with people and get paid for it, so yes I speed up my pension plan. So Called. It was planned relocation due to my daughter and my allergic to Jakarta's Pollution. It was devastating to not be able to breathe properly and keep coughing everytime we landed back in Jakarta. So after 2 weeks in Batu, I thought that I should find a mountain in Indonesia where I can still connect with business and find some works. Any works. So Ubud seems make sense to me (then I realized it's an open asylum with pretentious people and pretty racist to a dark-skinned girl).

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And so with my charm (read: good friends with good connection and trust) I got a part time job in Ubud to help a friend sort her online shop selling beautiful jewelry and charms, at the meantime spending my money going back and forth to Jakarta because I can't live with my daughter away and I kinda miss hustling life.  I literally breathe through my daughter.

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My mom with her big heart told me to spend sometime in Bali on my own and have a space, after all I just gone through a divorce of what I would say always be my first love and my good friend. It's a big hole to fill in when you are used to spending half of your life time with someone. So I cried myself out alone, enjoy my freedom for a while, and eventually I got sick literally for having imbalance life in just within 3 months in Bali. And so I tasted freedom, but without restraint, freedom means nothing. 

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I thought I had a burnt out, as I speed up my resignation after a blank and almost black out moment during video shoot which I made my own script and end up crying in the office's bathroom over choosing going for a meeting to defend my team or going to a project that I have fought at heart. I felt like a canary in a cage, unable to express my creativity and my purpose within the organization, I felt that my good intention was misunderstood by the people I who were meant to me. And so I thought I lost it. I thought I would never be able to fully function and do some works. But a friend told me that I gleamed bright whenever I'm working even if that works reminds me of my previous job. I did love my job and I do love what I'm doing. so I realized it was not a burnt out. It was then what I called a conflicting values, that taught me to have compassion. 

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Having learned life coaching helped me get through and understand what happens, and most significantly allowing me to see perspectives beyond what I see before and have compassion. Having compassion is what most valuable for me and opens up a new horizon of forgiveness and acceptance. Having peace with whatever it is. I understand the good intention, I acknowledge the pain, and I am okay if that's even only to my knowledge. 

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For once in my life I don't have 5 years plan (though yes I always have exit plans) and start allowing the universe to play its role even bigger to my being.

Upon the morning in Himalaya, I surrender everything and I even thought I am ready to die. But God has other plans for me, he gave me a vivid dream which awakens me.  He gave me consciousness in between the sanskirts to find the meaning back within the values of being a Moslem. To find the harmony of Al Quran in between Mantra Chanting. I have decided that I will live a Karma Yoga life where I would respond to people who are asking for a help. And that Karma Yoga become my daily life. 

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Then everythings started pouring in... I'm back in Tech game, manage to have a professional coaching practice in prestigious wellbeing center, runs hundreds of hours on executive and professional coaching, create a women empowerment program in other multinational companies, go for a pilgrimage journney with my mom and my daughter, went to a beautiful valley and the altitude lake of Jayawijaya, developing life coaching modules and classes, meet interesting and beautiful people, got a half-page coverage from national newspaper of my story, I can now share things freely that some used to condemn me for taking the spotlights. I even got a chance to face my fear and have it turned around with a beautiful feeling being underwater and most importantly, to live healthier despite of places, and naturally cope with the allergies. Both my girl and my daughter. And spend more and more time for my daughter and my mom. That's all that matters. Above all, time is non renewable resources, and you got only one life to live. 

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If I am to take few things out of my journey to give away, those things I wish I learned earlier and have more wisdom to listen, that would be: Compassion, Time, and Love to any being. 

It's good that you have a chance to do all the things for YOLO, but it's better to also see the meaning beyond the eyes of the people you cared most. May it be your parents, your family, your kids, your team, or even a stranger who gave you a smile. 

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So go on now, get up, get it done, and most importantly enjoy the journey :-)